Sometimes we just
have a bad day. Recently, I've been
having a hard time in my student teaching placement. It started with an observation by my
coordinator down here, and ended with my cooperating teacher basically demoting
me. I was told that I would get to teach
full time for two weeks. This last week
was one of them. Now, instead of
teaching full time, I'm basically back to just teaching math (apparently I
can't do that right either). It's been a
really emotional several days, but I have been able to see something positive
in each of them.
On Monday, I was on
the verge of a full mental breakdown in the middle of the school day. Luckily, I have some amazing students who can
make even a horrible day better.
One student makes
sure to say "Good Afternoon!" to me everyday before he leaves. Not a lot of the students make sure to say
goodbye each day. Today, that little
moment reminded me that I am important to these students. Even if I'm not teaching anymore, they know
I'm here and they appreciate what I do.
It brightened my entire mood, which I can tell you has been little more
than bleak.
Another student
asked me what we were doing for the day.
I couldn't tell them specifics since my CT decided to do all the new
planning. I let them know that she was
going to be teaching most the day now.
To my surprise I got several groans and upset comments. They truly wished that I were teaching still
this week. It was another bright light
in a very dim day!
It's so important as
a teacher or student teacher that we train ourselves to find something positive
in each day. This job can be trying and
exhausting. There will be days that we
feel like complete failures and that nothing is going right. If we don't take time to pick out those
positive moments, we will forget why we chose to do this in the first place.
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